The more i read other adoption blogs the more i worry. This is a complicated process. Not like the old days where the birthmother goes away, swept under the rug - and no one thinks about what she has to go through, who she is etc. She was the carrier of a child that now has a new life with a new family. Everyone gets their feelings hurt now. Everyone has to be really involved and hands on. I don't know - maybe my way was better - no one talked about it - everyone was silent and thought about it in private thoughts no one else could hear. I don't want to think everyday about being adopted. i don't want to talka bout it everyday with my adopted child. I want to live a normal life like everyone else. Why can't that happen?
When i think of all I've been through with this stupid body that won't work properly - i get mad - mad at this flesh taht looks perfectly fine but is defective, mad that i don't get what everyone else gets....my life has to be different - never easy, never uncomplicated. Why?
This blog at the Naked Ovary really spoke what my heart and head have felt all along...... things i've had inside and not told people but finally feel there are other people who have gone through it.